Praise God for Pressure

I'm struggling with my sins, and this time things are different because I know I have much more responsibility now. I'm stuck with an assignment that needs to get done, getting lazy, sleeping late, wasting time, not spending time in devotion, spending heaps of time playing starcraft, an issue with lust, an issue with taking care of my health and sleeping excessively.

But yeah as I said things are different now. Now I have a huge responsibility and eyes upon me (Youthgroup etc). This is because I mindlessly signed the leadership contract, because at the time I just did. I mean if I didn't do it I probably wouldn't be re-thinking everything right now. So that's why I'm praising God right now for the circumstance I'm in right now and at the end of it when I'm through with my trials it's going to show God's glory. Now I have a point to prove, that God is good enough for me to get through this.

The practical things are:
-is take away the laptop that was sitting next to my bed so that temptation is gone.
-Deleted all of my windows games (except for SC2) and always run mac so I don't have the icon to tempt me. Also just reminding myself that I need to get work done.
- pray in the morning saying that I need him

The things I need to do:
- Sleep earlier
- Pray and seek God more
- Put a list of the kids in my group somewhere visible to remind myself that I'm responsible for them
- Remind myself daily that I might have screwed up yesterday, but today is a new day and God can do something amazing whenever He wants too
- Do my uni readings
- Read my bible
- Talk to the people I trust (Earn trust by entrusting)
- Stop lying and think critically about my situation.
- Go gym
- Get license
- Remember that my God is a God who is so on top of things that my storms of my life (A cool thing I remember, is that Judah mentioned the disciples as experts. That's true that you are the expert of living you're own life haha).

So yeah I know there are alot of things I need to do and I need a lot of prayer discipline and work to get through this. But I know that it's not by my strength that these will get done, but by God's amazing grace over my life.

I know that I've struggled with these things before and for a very long I might add. I knew I would fall back on these subconsciously regardless of my super Hillsong high.
Thanks Pastor Jakes for teaching this lesson. That God is squeezing me, so that His grace will be revealed in my life.

"And this is my prayer in the battle
And triumph is still on it's way
I am a conqueror and co-heir with Christ
So firm on His promise I'll stand" - Hillsong

Peter.